Just To See You

I'm trying really hard to not let those words get to me,
I'm trying really hard to not process way other think of me,
If
I
Could
Just
Get to....
Where
Jesus
Is,
Then these thoughts and feelings could pass from me,
But they are the ones stop, no blocking me,
I'm tired of doing things to try and make people like me,
If I could just figure out how Jesus wants me,
I just want to be like Him,
Then I'd just try hard to worship Him,
Then,
Why does it have to wait though?
Why don't I worship Him here?
I try hard but the more I try is the more I fail,
If I try harder I fall farther,
I don't wanna do that
But that said; I don't know what I want,
I want Him,
Just to see Him,
His amazing presence
Jesus, can I see You?